Thoughts of a 21st Century Artist

Never listen

Staying persistent

Chasing a life that’s impossible to live

To have my dreams come true; what wouldn’t I give…

Fear of satisfaction and the lack of it

What if it doesn’t turn out to be how I pictured it?

‘’success’’ seemingly so close

Really, wouldn’t know what to do if I lose

If my dream turned into a real life nightmare

Not an excuse but, I can’t get rid of this fear

Maybe I should just settle, you know, play it safe

Conform like the masses, give up this damn chase

But then what do I become if not a shadow of myself?

Is there a bigger failure than not even attempting the test?

The struggle to stay real

Coz I don’t wanna have nothing to say to my kids…

Growing up with ideals

Never been one to over think

But as I sit and contemplate, conflicted

No solution comes to mind, no conclusion

I guess soon I’ll have to make a decision

Procrastinating making that choice

Trying to listen to my inner voice

Too much noise from the crowd

Knowing I’ll never get rid of all doubts…

I guess being in this position

Says a lot about my situation

That this decision is tough;

Maybe I don’t want it bad enough

No idea exactly what it is that I want

But I know what I don’t,

To be placated

To be bound

By my fear to stand my ground

Against these norms…

Just trynna escape

The normative compulsion.